Embarking A new Journey

Next plan , i must say this to myself over and over again so that i wont forget

1.Plan to study for second year, in group of course :)
2.Take serious on my usrah
3.Pray at earliest time possible
4.Must decorate prayer with sunah prayer after and before compulsory prayer
5.must recite AlQuran at least 1 surah per night
6.start to be constant with Al-Mathurat, compulsory once per day whether after fajr prayer or Asr prayer
7.read a lot of book to fulfill 1000 books before reaching 35 years old
8.make sure study constantly and you re going to back home only after 12 pm everyday for the coz of Allah to study
9.give full commitment on your duty in organization
10.no procrastination
11.no procrastination
12.no procrastination, eat your ugliest frog 1st
13.prioritize your task and duty
14.not easily bad mood
15.stand still on my decision as long as it is according to Allah
16.not easily persuade by people to do 'lalai' thingy
17.score for every exam

This is made Ya Allah purposely to get closer to you and be in your str8 path, please guide me to navigate mylife as a weak slave on this surface of the earth...im nobody without Allah.

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21st July 2010

I was waking up from sleep, it was 6. am in the morning...after the fajr prayer, i was thinking to settle the task given by uncle Azlishah from Aqsa Syarif. It was the wording for banner to promote the society of Presint 9 Putrajaya to attend a talk about Palestine awareness..
So i decided to go our nearest 'pekan' what we called as Bandar Permaisuri to have internet connection so that i can send the email to uncle Azlishah...i told my mother to use the car and she asked me to send the car to carwash..i said alrite.

When i went to Bandar Permaisuri, i left my car at carwash and went to CC to serve the internet..
about having 30 minutes at the CC, i went to the carwash to take my car and the car dont seem yet finished been washed..so i waited for another 20 minutes and i asked them to use their room to pray Zuhr...

It was late, i need to take my mother at school and my nenek at home, so that i can take them to Bandar Jertih...so after the car has been washed, i speed my car to our home and str8 to my mother's school to take my mother

During the travel to school, my nenek told me that she always wear seat belt whenever she board car...ahah..i never realized that. owh i see...that is good, more safer i told her.

When we had arrived at school, my mother came to car and i told her the fuel indicator had showed the red sign which mean we need to refill it. owh maan, we were totally unaware about it untill we have passed over the gas station so many kilometres ahead.., my mother who 1st realized expressed her concern and called via handphone my father to ask whether this fuel is enuf to travell another kilometre before reaching nearest gas station but unluckily he was not reacheable...hurm,

so i told my mother, okeh we will find a grocceries shop along our way so that we can have petrol as reserved b4 reaching the petrol station..the grocceries usually sell the petrol in small amount for the use of motorcycle and of course not for car..but we were really desperate.

so i stopped over at 2 shops and asked for petrol and they said we have no petrol and they referred my to a shop just opposite to a primary school just maybe 50 metres away..and i thanked them for helping

when i drove my car to the petrol shop, i made a right corner without giving the right signal(which the only thing i felt i am guilty for causing the accident)  but of course the car who crashed us was so fast which i think too fast in front of school area?

when i made a right corner to stop at the petrol shop, just a time fewer than a second , i heard a high pitched tyre braking and suddenly without i cant see the car coming from my right crashed my anterior right of our car and moved our car a few metres from the crash site. i can hear my mother scream in shock and my nenek was so calm that i dont hear she scream or anything from back of our car..my mother was so shocked that she cried beside me on the passenger seat...

during the skidding phase, the time was like paused for a moment that i can see my mother and nenek every moment until the car had stopped from moving..i was like so awake and quite shocked and i was thinking so much, owh my, really i am in accident site, i was crashed, alhamdullilah everyone was save in my car, what will happen next, Ya Allah..You want to test me, i repeatedly said astagfirullah to ask forgiveness from Allah...that was the moment just a few second before i went out from our car and went to see the driver who crashed our car..

The driver was saved and he uttering harsh words while trying to get out from his damage car to me as a sign of anger because he think im alone that caused the accident.i never been in this situation before was so calm and tranquilised because i think come what may, may Allah help us and i was so relieved that everyone was saved..i dont take so much concerned been verbally assault by those men and i repeatedly asked for forgiveness of what had happened.. he had no injuries accept his eyes were red because his head been pushed back by the airbag.

i had my pterion injured and my blood vessel around it expanded maybe because my head was banged to the the glass window of the door that the window smashed into pieces..i had my right elbow bleeding becoz the smashed window has cut my superficial skin and my 1st toe scrathes mayb coz of friction between the brake paddle or power paddle..i was not in pain until i was on my mother shool's van which took us home..

Enter 100% into the Ad-Deen and Sincerety to Allah SWT

I magnify Allah for His greatness,
The sustainer of all living creature
The omniwise, the great ruler and the all-knower...the gifter of knowledge, the great muraabbi...
You love your slave more than a mother love her baby
You love me Allah, that you dont want anything i do on this world may destroy my soul and myself emotionally and physically.
Ya Allah, keep myself under your great love and please dont let me to go astray.
Protect myself and please strengthen my feeling toward your couragement and please put myself away from anything that may degrade myself.

I am nobody without Allah
i feel safe under your protection....

My future plans

Hidup didunia hanya sementara dan akhirat kekal selamanye
sesungguhnya kehidupan di akhirat jauh lebih baek berbanding dunia
perancangan di dunia haruslah selari dengan persediaan ke alam akhirat
smga tergolong dlm golongan hamba yg beruntung...

Selagi ingat boleh dilistkan

1.melawat Edinburgh in winter
2.meet jews
3.specialist doctor
4.vacation on cruise
5.travel all around the world
6.belayar on my own yatch or my family nye yatch
7.study in UK
8.finish Al Quran recitation(master)
9.have soleh and solehah anak and of course solehah wife
10.perform Hajj
11.ladang and cottage percutian
12.read approximately 1000 books before 30 years old
13.become millionaire b4 35 years old
14.beautiful heart
15.be better than any prof in my University
16.enter palestine peacefully
17.to be in zaman kegemilangan islam
18.front line person in biotechnolgy development
19.share holder of multinational hospital
20.Tan Sri Dr Mohd Salman Subra Mullisi
21.zuhud with my harta and kekayaan dan status
22.treat people equally

To a beautiful painting that lives in the eyes

Time is clocking and there is not much to loose

Jerusalem, the old city of hundred beloved prophet...where Al Aqsa is situated....longing of my heart to be there penetrate my soul..i can feel the love of thousand soul who liberated Palestine some time ago ..they presented a thousand kisses which remained at the gate of premises. My old city of Jerusalem, my sweetheart...i hope i can be there with thousand brave muslim who come again and liberate you as what Umar Al Khattab RA and Salehuddin Al'Ayubi did.
I will come for you with my sincere iman and my pure love toward you...Allah please grant my wish...mytyr is my desire...There is no beauty other than be your slave and die on to the way of Allah.
Please lead me to straight path...Al-Jannah is my dream and my love toward Rasullulah SAW.
Allah you are so beautiful
I am stunted to your creation
Subhanallah, there is no God except Allah
Al-Quds, if you are going to be the land where my body will be buried, its my honour to be buried in the land of my beloved prophet and blessed land by Allah
The land of mikraj, Jerusalem the city of 1st Qiblah
Palestine, you are my Jihad and struggle..longing of my heart toward Jerusalem is developed day by day
Let me be your liberator
walk on this world and touch as many as people heart...longing of muslim will be end in very soon
Subhanallah...please grant my wish Ya Allah
There is no creature more supreme other than Allah...
Allah please engulf my heart becoz i dont want to be lonely anymore
Ya Allah, you are so beutifull
You are the greatest lover
Engulf my heart with your love and i shall never turn to other love
let me love to whom will bring my love and your love toward your eternall love alone
may Allah bless my life.
becof every good deed on this world brings rahmah

Nurturing the Passion to Care

Supplication

Ya Allah forgive me coz of my sin
Im a lonely creature without your love and attention
Im searching for humanly love more than your love alone
Forgive me my dear Lord
Every a step i take toward her love, i will take on thousand steps away from your love
Forgive me my dear Lord
Coz u re true lover of  your creature
and you creating me feeling of love to tell me how your love is so great to me and all of your creature
Forgive me my Lord
You are great lover to your slave
You give me the feeling of jealousy to tell me how you are jealous when i turn away your love when you are loving me more than i do
Subhanallah, Please forgive my sin and my unjust did to you and my soul
Ya Allah, please bring my life to a life which you blessed and do give me the best out of my life
Ya Allah, please give me shealter so that i can be on the str8 path navigating my life away on this  world
Ya Allah, i know and always knew that your love alone can bring me to the highest satisfaction of becoming a slave on this world
Ya Allah, please forgive me and please forgive me over and over again
Coz you are omni wise and omni blesser and lover..
You mentioned to me in your qalam of AlQuran that you are the Lord of great love and forgiver
You give me hope and you always give me great hope so that i will always turn back to you my Lord
Your love is endless and you always be able to accept me as your slave as i commit sin to you
Forgive my soul and my body O' my Lord
Please forgive her as i know im the one must lead the life of a muslimah
Her heart is soft as silk and i must guide her to the way which you bless
Forgive her and please Ya Allah, give the best to her life as im not be able to do so becoz you are the best giver to your creature.
Ya Allah, my heart is so lonely now, please engulf me with your love and i mean no turn away from your love
Subhanallah, im crying becoz i know my sincere heart is asking from your directly to you and i know you are been hearing what i want from you right now
i feel so close to you and i dont want to lose this feeling again Ya Allah
Ya Allah please forgive me, and please take care of me for always
Sometime i dont want to live on this world then i asked for syahid from you
World is too tough for me my Lord, thanks for your test and i know you love me and then you give me tests.

Nurturing The passion to Care

Kasih SayangMu aku dambakan Ya Allah

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Dan orang-orang yang beriman serta beramal soleh - (dengan tidak menjadi keberatan kepada mereka, kerana) Kami tidak memberati diri seseorang (dengan kewajipan) melainkan sekadar yang terdaya olehnya, - merekalah ahli Syurga, mereka kekal di dalamnya.

·         Sebagai seorang islam kita harus yakin bahawa semua usaha kita untuk kebaikan agama Allah adalah satu usaha yang mulia dan Allah memandang usaha kita dan mengurniakan kita balasan syurga jika kita ikhlas dan sabar menjalankannya

·         Walaupun kita merasa penat dan lelah dengan segala usaha kita terhadap agama, tetap yakinlah bahawa pertolongan Allah adalah sangat dekat kepada orang yang menolong agama Allah.

·         Kita harus yakin, usaha kita pada hari ini dapat menyediakan sebuah kehidupan yang diberkati pada masa hadapan

·         Inshallah, Allah tidak akan membebankan hambaNya melebihi kemampuan yang ada pada seorang hamba itu

·         Jangan merasa lemah dan tidak berdaya, sesungguhnya kamu mampu melaksanakan tanggungjawab yang diberi

·         Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosaku terhadap segala amanah yang Engkau berikan yang mana ak tidak mampu menjalankan dengan baik dan sempurna

·         Ampunkan lah aku atas kelalaianku

·         Aku selalu penat untuk menjalankan amanahMu padaku, tetapi aku tidak pernah akan berhenti untukMu

·         Sesungguhnya aku mendambakan kasih sayangMu Ya Allah

·         Pandanglah diriku yang hina ini, aku lemah tanpa berkatmu, tanpa sokonganMu

·         Kuatkanlah jiwaku terhadap agamaMu

·         Aku memohon keampunan terhadap jiwaku yang lemah dan jahil

·         Aku berlindung padaMu daripada sifat marah dan mudah berprasangka buruk

Aku Redha terhadap ketentuanMu

Nurturing The Passion to Care

Its About Journey

Alhamdullilah, segala puji dan syukur kepada Allah...Rabb yang menguasai sekalian alam. KekuasaanNya mencakupi segenap alam ciptaanNya dan tiada sebesar zarah pun makhlukNya dapat melarikan diri daripada genggaman kekuasaanNya..Sungguh Allah itu Maha Pengasih dan Maha penyayang kepada makhlukNya...tidak dibiarkan makhlukNya berdiri sendiri di atas muka bumi lantas Allah menyediakan segala keperluan makhlukNya sedang Allah tahu bahawa makhlukNya adalah sangat lemah dan Allah jua yang Maha Agung Maha Bijaksana...Allah tidak pernah mengabaikan makhlukNya walaupun sedetik waktu berpusing..Manusia yang lemah mendapat tarbiyah dariNya untuk terus kuat serta tabah menghadapi dunia yang penuh dugaan serta rintangan...

Life is about blaming

okeh, rasenye yg pak cik nak tutup pukul 11.30 pm tu boleh dinegosasi lagi la sbb xde dlm kertas hitam putih yg pak cik guard boleh tutup street mall campus dlm kul 11.30 or 12.00 am...so kalu kita bawa hal nie kat pak cik rasanya pak cik guard boleh terima untuk tutup kolej ontime regardless bape orang pon ade dlm tu...bukan selalu pon!! 

pasal kecurian hari tu, rasenye bukan salah pak cik sebb mmg lepas all the staff dtg pada waktu pagi tu, pak cik akan break from duty untuk balik umah and berehat..pak cik cuma akn tinggalkan kolej untk end his duty lepas cleaner dtg...maknanye bukan tanggungjwb pak cik lagi untk menjaga harta benda kolej pada waktu tu, receptionist shud play role now to get record every unknown people into college

how unknown can be detected, must based on the identification card lah, student pon take for granted the regulation untuk memakai name card, sebb tu la senang je org nak masuk kolej...

kalu nak blame pak cik guard, we must blame ourself 1st rite, pak cik guard mane mampu nak control sume org melainkan kalian berhati-hati dengan your belonging..

i have heard pak cik guard, complaining that some of us bringing people, friend from outside and he did ask them to leave for many times, and i am sure pak cik guard has done his part as a guard...tu pon sebb pak cik mmg kuat ingatan boleh hafal faces of student yg fimiliar dengan dia..

he did remind us all the time that we must take care of our belonging, dont leave our belonging unguard by our friend or people we can believe

i swear to God he did mention us too many times...personally, ive been advised for many times and i feel malu lagi untuk tinggalkan barang atas meja tanpa dijaga everytime i need to leave for prayer or went to Roswell..i ll make sure ade orang jaga or mahu tak mahu bawaklah ape2 yg berharga supaya pak cik guard tak membebel lagi kat sye...

how u can say pak cik is not care enough with our belongings...he is not an ignorance...do we???

i strongly believe that we must help each other to have good condtion of our college, please respect the older and listen to what they said

dont underestimate people u see as "guard" becoz he is doing his part as human being to perform his duty as best as he can...

i feel sorry need to respond to this complaining

i am so unhappy pak cik is blamed for all this matter

maybe lepas nie sye boleh mintak pak cik guard to be more strict, anyone tak bawak card matrix boleh blah balik umah..at least he knows student are giving commitment to have a safer place in our respective college...kalu student pon x peduli, pak cik tak dapat la nak menolong...  :)

Mohd Salman Bin Subra Mullisi

Vice President 2 student council

MBBS 0910

Children of HIV

Yesterday, we went to Pusat Jagaan anak yatim Soleha situated somewhere in Bandar Tun Razak to join the reading programme to the children which have lost their family and also having the virus of HIV

They looked normal as other kid too, and also happy and fun.they are enjoying their life as other normal kid did,

when i went there i was only think to please these kids and also teach them the learning materials prepared by my senior..we went there in a group of 4 ..2 male and 2 female in my group and my group of senior.

These kid seem not to care much about being the carrier of HIV.They were so happy and naughty..i felt touched to see them as a normal kid and they are abonded by the family and society.They are innocent children they have right to live as happy as other kid..

Living without own family is a very hard for me, Allah loves His slave, that He dont want us to ignore this children and keep giving them support so that they feel loved by all people around them

i dont feel and awkward  mingling with them and i feel comfortable around them...they looked so fine and healthy.

they are good student and hv good understanding on what we were teaching.

they have good self concious and also behavior-cant eat somethng on the floor-germ and so on

they have their vision about future, some of them wanting to be a pilot, fireman and aslo policemen..basic reason of their ambition because they want to help people in need...

if they want to help us, why we are not able to help them to accept them as part of our community and help them to see this world as one and people walk along them to achieve their succes...

we must support them and also give them emotional support...give them good education about religion so that the know Allah always love them and even if they are no longer living on this world, Allah will make them the most happiest person in the heaven if they behave accordingly on this world...

I know, being a HIV + carrier, this will expose them to low immunity system and also prevent the curing mechanism if they are infected by bacteria or disease, but at least if we can educate them on how to take care of themself and live properly on this world, they can survive and live happily as other.

they must be reminded to put everythng on Allah plans and thus they will be more calm and tranquil to accept whoever they are...

Nurturing The passion to Care